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"From the ends of the earth, I cry to you for help when my heart is overwhelmed. Lead me to the towering rock of safety, for you are my safe refuge."
                                                                                                ~~Psalm 61:3

 I am finally on annual leave. But I have been super stressed out by the things I have to pack to move back home. Mr R is moving to Tasmania soon and I am back to living with my parents. I was very anxious last night that I think I was having a panic attack, I suddenly felt so dizzy and breathing heavily it was not normal. I've never experienced anything like this before. Tonight as well I just felt sick in the stomach. I couldn't control myself. In the past when I was super anxious or stressed I could manage it by talking about it or doing other things to calm me down. However, I don't know what happened. I just blanked out. Mr R had to calm me down and reminded me that I could always pray and read the bible because he knows that will calm me down. So that is why I picked out the above quote. Because I was overwhelmed from my thoughts and emotions all scrunched up in my head making it feel like it wants to explode. I feel like time is travelling so fast and ahead of me. I know it won't even slow down. But I have to trust in the Lord and let him lead me to wherever life goes because he has a plan and I have to trust him. 

- Rambling thoughts

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